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So, I've been feeling like I should say something, and I've decided I'll just man up and do it.
For the past two years, I've been deep in depression and self-hatred. I have a tendency to bottle things up inside, not talk about anything. So, when my parents got divorced in 2013, apparently all of that just came out at once, from what my therapist has told me. I'm lazier than I used to be, severely undermotivated, anhedonistic, insomniac AND hypersomniac, and plenty of other things. There's a friend of mine who has been through similar rough times, so we've talked a lot and still do, but we both knew I had to talk about it. So, a few months ago, I opened up to my mom, she told my dad, and we've been trying to work things out since. I'm seeing a therapist on a weekly basis, which helped a little at first but I'm not sure how I feel about it now. I'm also on escitalopram to try to balance my mood; unfortunately, it also had a tendency to cause headaches and it might be wreaking more havoc on my sleeping, but I guess it's better than what sine other meds do to you. I still struggle from time to time, but I think I might be doing somewhat better, though far from well.
Now, before anyone starts to worry, I want to say now that I have made no attempts to harm myself in any way, nor do I intend to do so in the future. I will admit, the thought does cross my mind from time to time, and there have been occasions where it has seemed like the best option, but I've never actually managed to attempt or even begin to attempt anything.
I know that there are plenty of people, especially on the site, who have it way worse than I do, and I always feel awful when I see that. I didn't write this journal looking for pity over a relatively insignificant issue when there are plenty of others more deserving of sympathy and aid. I just wanted you guys to know what was going on and to just say this since I have trouble doing so. It's also something of an explanation for my life productivity; I'm not even motivated to do things I enjoy much anymore, so I don't spend as much time drawing as I used to. I hope to change that, though. So, if you've read this far, thanks for reading and thanks for sticking with me though this.
For the past two years, I've been deep in depression and self-hatred. I have a tendency to bottle things up inside, not talk about anything. So, when my parents got divorced in 2013, apparently all of that just came out at once, from what my therapist has told me. I'm lazier than I used to be, severely undermotivated, anhedonistic, insomniac AND hypersomniac, and plenty of other things. There's a friend of mine who has been through similar rough times, so we've talked a lot and still do, but we both knew I had to talk about it. So, a few months ago, I opened up to my mom, she told my dad, and we've been trying to work things out since. I'm seeing a therapist on a weekly basis, which helped a little at first but I'm not sure how I feel about it now. I'm also on escitalopram to try to balance my mood; unfortunately, it also had a tendency to cause headaches and it might be wreaking more havoc on my sleeping, but I guess it's better than what sine other meds do to you. I still struggle from time to time, but I think I might be doing somewhat better, though far from well.
Now, before anyone starts to worry, I want to say now that I have made no attempts to harm myself in any way, nor do I intend to do so in the future. I will admit, the thought does cross my mind from time to time, and there have been occasions where it has seemed like the best option, but I've never actually managed to attempt or even begin to attempt anything.
I know that there are plenty of people, especially on the site, who have it way worse than I do, and I always feel awful when I see that. I didn't write this journal looking for pity over a relatively insignificant issue when there are plenty of others more deserving of sympathy and aid. I just wanted you guys to know what was going on and to just say this since I have trouble doing so. It's also something of an explanation for my life productivity; I'm not even motivated to do things I enjoy much anymore, so I don't spend as much time drawing as I used to. I hope to change that, though. So, if you've read this far, thanks for reading and thanks for sticking with me though this.
152 Water type Concepts
For those unfamiliar with the inspiration (Bogleech/scythemantis (https://www.deviantart.com/scythemantis)): My goal was to take the Water type and all 17 possible dual types featuring it, and come up with at least 8 concepts for Pokémon of each type and/or combination, as well as a bonus Legendary Pokémon to go with them.
I hope to use these some day, but that doesn't mean they're just for me! Feel free to use any of these concepts. All I ask is that you show me what you did; I'd love to see how people interpret them.
Now, without further ado:
Pure Water:
A fearsome muskrat that grows to dominate the section of the body of water it lives in
A tiger (or other big cat) s
160 Electric Type Concepts
For those unfamiliar with the inspiration (Bogleech/scythemantis (https://www.deviantart.com/scythemantis)): My goal was to take the Electric type and all 17 possible dual types featuring it, and come up with at least 8 concepts for Pokémon of each type and/or combination, as well as a bonus Legendary Pokémon to go with them.
I hope to use these some day, but that doesn't mean they're just for me! Feel free to use any of these concepts. All I ask is that you show me what you did; I'd love to see how people interpret them.
Now, without further ado:
Pure Electric:
Dark-furred mustelid with minor canine features, to represent an incarnation of the Raijū; docile and al
150 Ice type Concepts
For those unfamiliar with the inspiration (Bogleech/scythemantis (https://www.deviantart.com/scythemantis)): My goal was to take the Ice type and all 17 possible dual types featuring it, and come up with at least 8 concepts for Pokémon of each type and/or combination, as well as a bonus Legendary Pokémon to go with them.
I hope to use these some day, but that doesn't mean they're just for me! Feel free to use any of these concepts. All I ask is that you show me what you did; I'd love to see how people interpret them.
Now, without further ado:
Pure Ice:
Tricky Arctic Fox, possibly looks like a pile of snow when curled up
A muntjac deer that emphasises the fangs and has v
153 Normal type Concepts
For those unfamiliar with the inspiration (Bogleech/scythemantis (https://www.deviantart.com/scythemantis)): My goal was to take the Normal type and all 17 possible dual types featuring it, and come up with at least 8 concepts for Pokémon of each type and/or combination, as well as a bonus Legendary Pokémon to go with them.
I hope to use these some day, but that doesn't mean they're just for me! Feel free to use any of these concepts. All I ask is that you show me what you did; I'd love to see how people interpret them.
Now, without further ado:
Pure Normal:
Lazy cat that prefers sleeping to fighting
Monkey that likes to steal clothes and act like a person
Mutt dog that
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aw ;; i've had similar issues over the past couple of years
you can always talk to me if you want ;;
you can always talk to me if you want ;;